July the Fourth 2009

Have been reviewing my life lately I notice. Have literally been reviewing spontaneously the self-hatred, the dreadful guilt, the deathly regret at the foundation of my character. My only hope of survival was to simply relax and fall under the spell of the destructive demon-accept His Word and Do Exactly as demanded. My growth and development under this yoke was invisable to me but there was new life being born-damges occurred but I did learn how to work and to focus and for me that is blessing.
Finally "saw" what was holding me back, had been holding me back-guilt, regret, shame. I was ignorant of my position and would not take a hint from more successful people/could not take a hint because I thought "created equal" meant that we are all alike. The correct answer is that although we are all human we do not share the same traits in equal perportion-I see that now