And so this Christmas-strangest Christmas ever. I told Steve that I think all is so weird because I disinvited Jesus through my profound rejection of the Christian story. I shook it off much like a dog will shake off water. I honestly believe that god/goddess/higher power led me to this point. I always prayed,I studied, I sought out people I could talk to, I took instruction and was accepted in the RC community, I went to Mass and still I ended up here. I remember one morning reciting the Nicene Creed aloud in church and just understanding that whoever had written down the thoughts didn't believe them and that the thoughts were used to keep us, the uneducated,unenlightened, poor workers down on the farm so to speak.No money and my granddaughter took the car, a rented car, out for a few hours and someone also took my bill fold and returned it minus the $40-$50 but at least I have my driver's license, and debit crd. The bank has put a hold on my money, my sister is showing stronger signs of dementia, my work is increasingly diffacult to get to