Monday

Here I am at home-wanted to stay and then Arvin is saying that something in his lower abdomen is hurting him and so I use that as an excuse.
Looking a Hecate one of my favorite daily sites: I don't relate to the WICCA holidays I guess because I have never celebrated them with family and loved ones never anticipated the arrival of the day,etc. I also am not interested in religions-I don't want to be involved with the tenants,the faiths, the explanations. I love the seasons, the birds and worms and animals I love the growing plants and cooking and cleaning and being at home. I love walking and I love looking. I would love to join with others on these walks but I am no Goddess worshiper-when I left god the father I din't stay in that mindset. I have a knowing spirit in me that I know as god in me, my conscoiusness of the Divine which is neither human,rock not even spirit but really not to be described in our thoughts or words. I know that this intelligent universe comes from intelligence, this self creating world comes from creativity the love in me comes from love and I imagine that the darkness comes from darkness too. I just know tha there is love in me and that is what i trust.
I love Our Lady Mary and her sister mary magdalene well not her sister but Jesus best friend who best understood what he was about and what he wanted to explain. Paul and the other men and then the priests and popes bore me although the poetry said to be from Paul-the Corintheans is so beautiful the words still break my heart " the greatest of these is love" I remember reading those bible passages outloud in the chior from the earlist days in the light blue covered hymnals and I loved them. I turned to Catholicism because they have Mary and the Pope ascended her directly to heaven unlike the starched, pinched protestents. I loved the Methodists I was raised with for their dedication to good works but they had nothing for the heart erxcept the Upper Room. The Catholics have Mary and my baptism name is Mary Magdelene and I love her and all the heresy surrounding her.