05/12/2010

I am slowly recovering although I continue to experience weakness and low energy.
Yesterday took Hunter and Pookie to have their vasectomy and they are now home sleeping with swollen scrotums. I so regret having to hurt them this way. They are so sweet and don't seem to blame me the way their sister does since her hysterectomy. Please forgive the spelling of the medical terms if I am wrong.
The destruction of the Gulf of Mexico proves, for me at least, the presence of evil in our lives: this could have been prevented but BP and others are too greedy to spend the money on the preventative technology and we are too mindless and unconscious to require that the oil company and developers use all available technology to insurance against this destruction.
No one seems to want to discuss that, at least to me, all the jet travel, the shipping food from one continent to another,the shipping cheap clothing from one ontinent to another is at the heart of this destructive crisis. We cannot support this any longer at least as I understand things. We must grow our own food and sew our own clothes. This craziness of flying to the Moon,etc must be discussed with the true expense made conscious. For me it is necessary that we ground all our dreams and aspirations-we need to know the actual costs of flight, of car travel, of high rise living as home or as business location. We are no longer under the thrall of those who would be King of the World. This is the age of "people" the common people- we are not interested in cheap clothes from India or China. We don't need lots of extra clothes but we do need to know how to grow potatoes and strawberries and parsly and mint and chickens and how to "put up" the harvest of summer so that we eat in winter.
Sebastian Junger discussing his new book "War" on the Morning Joe show. Listening to him I understand the draw of war in a way that Hillman did not explain to me. I have been always anti-war hating the consequences of war on the civilians and these days war is mostly fought on the the bodies and lives of the "non-combatants". I weep to see these young boys completely baptized into the the hell of war and this is the deepest most meaningful experience of their lives. I will definitly read this book. Junger is the writer from Vanity Fair who wrote the devastating story of the fishing expedition gone wrong and ending up destroyed. As I recall there was one survivor. Oh!! how could I have not remembered: the book is titled "The Perfect Storm"a story that just resonated in my body. I even went to see the movie and cried all the way through knowing how "it ended".
Have to go right now- more Court House activity today with B for her son A.