More of Tuessday

I go to Shayleah's Hearth.com: a site for kitchen witches. If I am any type of witch I am a kitchen scholar. I share food and knowledge and hopefully so generously that the uninitiated eat freely and take what they need from my studies and never feel forced.
Today has been a day of thinking how angry i am with the old men and their lusting and fearing after young beautiful women as in Imus and Letterman and the treacherous young woman hatred that surfaces almost in every show of HOUSE. I see the anti-choice movement as the manifastation of this hatred: young women sexually initiated are either sluts or baby-killers. Jeez I hate this in a more loving informed environment women could protect themselves from pregnancy with contraception that doesn't threaten their health or arrange for early abortion that doesn't cccausse so much guilt. I find it strange that even in this time of choices people don't want to allow pregnancy termination.
I know my own guilt for early ssex the conceptiion of two children that i birthed but did not raise-a bad girl, slut becuase i could not keep going in the marriage that I had with Wayne. I was so lonely and isolated and so bright and there was no one to guide me. I think I could have settled if I could have had a steady strong feminine mentor like Mrs Thompson but alas and what I needed to contact my inner Teacher was the suffering and the confusion. Now in my sixties I feel at home not proud of everything but grateful for this life and this opportunity to come to know myself even though by my current understanding this "self" is temporary-it arises with the body. I believe that life is eternal but I don't know what "Life" is only that I am part of Life. As the Religous Science man wrote " I believe that there is one life,that life is god and that life is my life now. Those words sum up my religion.