Okay back to OA: no more denial if I can help it. Early morning prayers and meditations asking for guidance and what comes to mind? OA. Now it isn't for the hope of attracting men but the hope of saving my life.
Whew!! Julie comes to mind-my friend from those days in the 80's that ended in bouts of the drug Exstasy?) and desire to have been born with trust funds like Julie was. In the end Julie left and still lives on the Big Island.
I recently realized that Julie was mean in the way those born wealthy often are. she never knew the stress of supporting self and children. She knew the pain of death and loss more than most but she never knew the need to accommodate others in order to arrange to meet the basics-rent,utilities,transportation this without even going into the needs of children and holidays and on and on. she seemed so contemptuous.
So this must come up and be offered up to the Light to transform into what it will be.
About Me
- Singing Sparrow
- I almost always write in the early morning. I am an aging hippie living with my husband lover, my adult daughter,my almost adult granddaughter looking for her first full time job and my almost teenage grandson and my sister who is 11 months the younger. As the world prepares for a righteous struggle for individual independence and the correcting of the power of corporations to tell how, where and even when to live i seek the lower level where gardens grow and children learn. +++
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