Sunday 8/30/09

Okay during the reading with Josie she diagnosed Candida of which I have had symptoms but which have remained unconscious with me unable to accept the importance of changing my diet, dropping some of this body mass and changing my outlook. she spoke to my lack of security and trust which is causing massive allergies to almost everything ( echoes of my mother here which was in maturity suffered the same maladies). I touched into how unhappy I am carrying Amy and her children with no indication that anything I offer or do makes a difference. The children have been raised in the ghetto oh shutup Clymela their friends are out there going to school working moving on but Amy's children are so injured due to her raging neglect caused by the years of substance abuse that they aare unable to do anything at all. courtney simply goes from the housse to friends with ssttories of her plans that she never acts upon. Arvin has been hospitalized four times since 6/09 for psychological reasons.