12/22/2009

Blessed solstice and Happy Yule to all of us!! And I mean this no matter what may come even if we are gratefully eating legumes and cornbread.
You may wonder why I am complaining in the personal mode-California has NOT paid my SO since September and even our progressive State Rep's (Nancy Skinner) office is giving us different replies and no money. This is what it means for literally thousands,who knows millions, of folk here.I am one of the fortunate ones-I have a pension and Social Security but this covers the basics here in California with literally nothing left over for the trimmings-that is why Steve has felt so blessed to get these tutoring/editing positions through the Dept of Rehab while he finishes his education.
I began this for Astroworld but realized that it was way too personal and long winded.

I am supporting the likes of Bernie Sanders and Patrick Leahy and therefore the passage of this clumsy and scary health care bill. As Bernie said this includes community health care centers to get folks out of the emergency rooms. We will work on the law as we go along. I know that the Democrats are not the source of our difficulties and we will get things resolved.

I am back to supporting Obama-wonderful words by Bernie Sanders of Vermont shifted me and convinced me that this bill must go through and WE will clean it up and get the awful stuff out of there. I do believe that we can clean up the amendment that allows the insurance companies to be protected as they practice anti-competition through law. I know there is a term, the anti-????, but it is early morning and I can't get the term up through the fog in my mind.

I am making bread and I am committed to being a light for my family-this will get worked out somehow even if it means celebrating the season next week.

I was thinking of a couple of single friends who think that I am abused by my partner because he has not been paid since September by the State of California. Oh I hear from a couple of my friends who are single about how he has been in school for years now and he should get another job. Well dear friends he now has such a high GPA that he is graduating with honors and he has tried to find other work to no avail in these days of 10+ unemployment and even higher here in the Bay Area. We will get the money eventually and our lives will get better and we will stay together in love and friendship. What the "step-sisters" don't see is how he throws everything he earns or receives into the pot just as I do - everything,EVERYTHING we do we do by discussion and we share everything and he has helped me raise my grandchildren,stayed here when my sister and my mother were here and hating us and hating California and my ragamuffin,hippie way of life. Whee!! these same "stepsisters" would drop me in a heartbeat if they have an opportunity to build a new relationship-they have done this repeatedly in the past and I would just go on with my boring,Civil Service job, apartment living, half Hippie way. Not real successful but at least I have something now.
Okay enough of that whining. Yes I feel betrayed here but these women are complex as am I and the relationships have so many layers and such patina from years simply years of relatedness so I am willing to live with the complexity,

I love the Salvation Army ads this year; the ads show wonderful young women expressing gratitude and love for all the agency has done for them and their children. I am no longer Christian but I think that much worse could happen to these young women and their children than praying to an invisible god and living with some very restrictive social rules and the thought of them being out of the streets and the pimps and the drugs is wonderful. The company doing the ads found some really wonderful young women to represent the program.