3/19/2010

Still do not have the cash or credit to get the power needed for the new monitor so only have Steve's wonderful power book (refurbished, bought with student money at the beginning of the semester for $500 after his I Book was killed when one of our cats knocked over a huge glass of iced tea and drowned it. Blessedly we had a dollar just at that moment.)which is eating into my writing time and really eats into the jumping up to document some inspiration or outrage but so it is.
Right now we are so broke that my daughter,much more broke than we are is providing food to get us through the weekend. Yep!! that is the case. Also called left a message with the landlord that I will have a $900 check on Monday and the other $200 will have to wait until the 30th and this is for March.
We are promised a check for Steve's 12/2009 earnings. Looks like the state is starting to pay closer to timely but with always whittling away at the amount agreed upon. This time deducting from the grand total of $640 to something around $550. Creepy the way Schwarzenegger has been so careful to pinch only the lowly,the poor, the needy. This governor and his helpers such as Pete Wilson that mean, little man doing all that they can to prove that government cannot be trusted.
W@atching 24 which I watched only in the beginning and once I recognized the propaganda for what it is I never watched again but I grew curious. Still propaganda,disgusting. I think that screeching Cheney girl,Liz (?)should be hired to read a breathless commentary.
I love NCIS even though that too si about torture and snipers,etc but in that show there is the occasional aside to keep us grounded in a moral universe and there is a development of interesting beautiful people. 24 is pure cliche as one would expect from those locked into their third chakra-all ambition and desire for more,more,more.
I once had an experience when meditating: I was resting after having done a chakra cleanse when someone was in the room with me. Someone said Clymela look!! I turned my head to the right and there was a handsome ,young man dressed in ancient style or Mid-Eastern style. ;He had a deep red robe and a cream colored gown. He was pointing to his belt which had a huge,gold circle pendant and this was enclosed by some type of black binding. He kept pointing at the "belt" saying look,look,look!! I never have understood what he was pointing at. At that time I was concerned with my lazy 1st and 2nd chakras and my over developed 6th and 7th and corded 5th. In other words I was not grounded enough and I was unable to speak my mind. This was just after the break-up with Roland and I had Naomi for supervisor, my daughter was using crack cocaine and I was just as broke as I am now although I sure didn't have Steve in my life.
I have eaten so much shit from others for being broke all the time for asking for cash when things were awful. Thankfully now with Steve I realize how much I have done for others, how large is my extended family,how I picked up stakes and went to help my mother during my father's last illness because my mother asked me to and on and on. With Steve I see myself in kinder light and consequently I am more grounded of course age helps too.