I am actually losing weight. Back sometime ago I was released from the gnawing hunger that drove me to eat compulsively for years. I just was so hungry. what freed me was realizing that women and perhaps men who are caretakers need a larger body with which to meet the demands and to also protect their centers so that their word is respected and their power acknowledged. The importance of the mother's/caretaker's will is primary and therefore we grow large. Once I saw that I could begin working on releasing a lot of that will since everyone is grown now no longer in need of so much direction from me and also able to withstand some demands from me. The hunger is abating now and I am slimming-even though I will never be young again.
This week big talk about how old looking I am now. Took a snapshot of me on Adams St about 15 years ago and the people at work said that they would not recognize me. I wasn't expecting that but there it is now still I love getting old. Suzanne Summers was on Thom Hartman selling her book on staying young with hormone replacement and one woman called in to say that it is only the "old" women who transfer culture from one generation to the next. She went on to say that only when we are no longer busy with the mating season that we have the time to work with the young,etc. I so agree and I love this period of my life when I am once again returned to my own center nevertheless this always vain "pretty girl" took it on the chin.
Suzanne Summers said that she still loves her sex life. I still love mine much deeper and powerful than the sex of the reproductive years but not as compulsive. I guess I think that Suzanne Summers was so powerful and successful as a pretty girl that she doesn't want to walk away to the kitchen and the kitchen garden and the guiding the young ones into happiness and authority. I don't think there is anything wrong with that but I just have a different outlook.