Whew!! the most trying week. Medical issues and issues at work and issues at home. trailed all week long by a dark, dreary, dreadful outlook that i could not shake. things worked out on the material plane but the mood lingered until we were wlking downTelegraph yesterday and this wonderful woman appearing in her 50's/60's heavier than is fashionable dressed in brown stoppe d to give a hungry man some cash and then she walked into the store Ancient Ways. I loved her immediately there seemed to be a loving smile all over her. We gave him some money and then scurried into the store but she was already buzy reading Tarot for someone. I loved the bags and incense and books and the feeling of the store. We had to go but I will be back. whatever those women are practicing is what i want for my life.
A shot of life/light reminded me not to lean on anyone but to use my own mind/thoughts to lift myself up to the light and love available all the time and the gloomy mood of the week started breaking up much as the stormy sky broke u when the storm passed. I was rereminded that I know of a better way of life rather than waiting for my "higher-ups" to send me what I need I can dirct myself to what I need through my thoughts and beliefs. that wonderful woman reminded me of this fact. Mountain Woman muc like Jerry Garcias first wife who could have saved him if only he was willing.
I have grown weary of politics,weary of the struggle for clear, positive thought. I no longer care to hear politicians tipp toeing around Israel and the rightwubg activities of their government. I believe that netnyahu won by stealing the election. At any rate I want out and away I want to focus on myself and my family, on personal and private things for a bit. I wat to develop my mental strengths and then to teach those willing how to do this for themselves so that they are eternally free within regardless of the externals or at least the external beliefs of other people. I have a lot to earn about the earth and myself and that is where my interests lie at thsi point.