In the shower with the tv blocked out and warm water reminded of the gratitude I intuitively know and have relied n for all my life. Always knew G-D more now as mother than father no doubt that is a personality thing-my mother was kinder to me than my father although my father was truer more faithful. Nevertheless I have been drawn to WICCA,etc because of the joy of gathering with women to learn about life and creation without the hinderence of dogma,faith,belief and other people's experience. Reading Hartman's book The Prophet's Way has lit that fire in me again although I have to struggle with greed and ambition when reading the book because I want to be a prophet, to know a master anything to excuse my mistakes and prove that I am better than other's. Whee the emotional jag parading as spiritual experience. However, in the shower a different experience one of gratitude for the grace of having a home for my loved ones of being able to provide shelter while not leaving anyone with the false notion that I am providing a free ride.