Jude over at Stars Over Washington got me to thinking about my chart as she hooked us up to another astrologer and a piece she ( Julie Demboski) did on the quickly approaching powerful ingagement of the personal planets and the big guys-Saturn,Pluto. I dreamed that I went over to John's house to ask for yet another loan and he wasn't there and I had to leave him a note and it took three different pens, one was a pencil. John agreed to the loan but I was still uncomfortable. The majority of the planetary activity doesn't seem to have much to do with money but rather more to do with work and position and who I want to be in the world and there is an emphasis on leaving the home and family alone for a bit and focusing on who/where I want to be in the world.
Precious alex is here moaning in his sleep. He has been through so much and he hides his outlaw side from me afraid that he will lose my love and maybe he is right I just know that I love this kid who is Arvin's best friend and they look alike and they really love each other.
I am on the side of common people although I prefer conversation with the educated and enlightened. I want to work with those who don't have enough and I have and for the most part I have loved it although the attention to detail demanded of bureaucrats is taxing still I have gotten better. I love working with the people in IHSS and I would also like to work with families but the years of hateful limitations has made everyone so mean I can no longer function there. I felt tht I would one day go mad and jump on my desk and challenge the next self-rightous worker to a duel, I pride myself on believing that I had something to due with forcing one such trainer into retirement. She was going on and on about people not reporting accurately and referring them to the DA. I held up my hand and said is this all you can understand about people who are poor enough to qualify for these programs knowing that the amount of food stamps we can give will not feel anyone for a month? I think she wanted to strangle me and I was so grateful that I stood up for those who have no one to stand up for them, I actually felt guilty about being mean to her publicly but the workers needed to hear another side. she stopped the training class that day and soon retired.
Amy still sick, Steve still sick-bad stuff this flu.