Can't really get excited about writing this morning. Raining hard about an hour ago sounded like a waterfall. Love this and the hope that the terperatures will fall and there will be more snow in the mountains which is what we need to fill the resevoriors.
Spent $300 yesterday on food still don't have any new rubber gloves the money goes so fast and we really need someone at home cooking and baking to keep costs down. Eating grapes from Chile that cost 88 cents a pound. This is crazy and I bought them because they are so popular in the family. Arvin eating frozen chicken pieces (well he "nuked" them) previously cooked and then frozen. this is how we live. Wonder what things would look like if we really are more individually responsible for our own lives. The way I grew up required people at home to clean and cook-I would love to back to that would even be willing t0 be chief cook and bottle washer.
Strange days ately thinking of being in the last cycle and then thinking that I don't really want to think of myself as coming to the end for fear that I will punk out before I have to. Strange to have memories that are 50/60 years old. Had a fantasy of visiting Moscow,KS and even though I went to the right houses no one was there because we are either gone or dead I felt such a shock to conect with that truth. Can't go home again isn't that what the poet said? Whose face do I see when my attention relaxes?? Still don't know.