4/9/2009

I saved my earlier post without any editing so that i could go take care of morning things and I thought that I could go back to it but no I could not easily figure out how to do that.
I just heard that Schwarzenegger is not allowed to drop that rate used to pay hospitals for Medi-Cal coverage. I was stunned to realize that the Nazi children /granchildren are silently continuing to turn California into a state where working people exist to serve the wealthy much like Colorado was when I lived there mut Colorado is changing because the intelligent and hustling youn peopl left California for Colorado.
I actually hate Schwarzengger and I get nauseauseous when I see Maria Shriver what a horrible life and education that child of privelege must have had in order to end up with that pig. Really I find him hideous the damage he does daily to us the common citizens. I am staggered that people would rather have his pale fascism really nazi superiority over the man he displaced. I really cn't understand that.
Last night I could not sleep until after 10 even though I regularly arise between 4:30 and 5 AM in order to have time to write and read in quiet. No one was hideouly intrusive put the energy was so disruptive for me. steve hit the definition when he : so profane!. that is what happens with Amy and Courtney-they live a profane life full of low life people who are parely able to support themselves. they seem to draw all their cultural life from TV. I feel guilty for not raising Amy more quietly with more emphasis on what lasts-ideals, religion in the sense of emphasizing the stories of creation and how to live. I was all ambitious to live the carefree life I thought others had;to be profane in my own time and curse god and the government. I learned but at what a cost to Amy-I was unconscious through most of the 1980's while she lived with her father in what was to her the part of her life. Oh god perhaps it just the difference in our generational position-I am old now and the young ones are full of the profane ambitions of building a position in the world and living a commentary on the old ways.