Two very hot days here in the mild SF Bay Area. we slept, all of us, with windows open gasping for our sweet ocean cooled air. We are not accustomed to dry heat up in the 90's. The air is comforting this morning but the blinds will have to come down with light to capture the night coolness. Hamburgers tonight i think and ice tea and cool things such as bean salad,etc.
In the early morning I head chris matthews plugging his new book on how to get ahead in the world. His adivice is to make friends of those you want to be like or who can hire you.!! Simple wisdom precious adice and ina twinkling i realized why I never advanced at work-I was completely consumed with doing it my way with being the star bui never really believing that I could succeed and also being obsessed with unearthing my evil shadow and naming her. I was full of mystical things and uninterested in practical things and so I failed by offending those who wanted to help me and therfore help themselves and the County. Jung was right that the things I was interested were not for young people who needed to find their way in the world. I believed that I couldn't find my way in the world that I didn't desreve success because I had abandoned Lisa and shawn and committed nefarious acts along the way hurting those who only wanted to love me. I wanted to be the Loner dressed in black riding into town to do charts and tell fortunes and gathering the praise that would dissolve my guilt and shame and raise me bodily into heaven. Of course I didn't ascend into heaven and ended up here sitting on the garbage heap. My father's Aries voice so loud and my loyalty so strong and deep that I followed my own interpretation straight to hell and no one could break through I think because my personality is so strong that no one dared or maybe they just wanted off my careenng trolley headed straight to destruction.
Good realizaation now that I am retiring do to age and opportunity
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