10/31/2009

Sitting in the backwards consciousness brought on by this wicked flu but nevertheless: left Wayne, Lisa and Shawn 12/26/1967 around 8 in the evening. Looking at the chart I would advise the young person to not run to stay and figure out what is wrong and if things could be made better but that would have required a maturity that I simply did not have and for which I had to go out hunting which is what Idid-stealing education and philosophy and insight where ever I found it. I stole livelihood from Gerald and then kicked him out,supported myself as a welfare mother and impoverished student and got a job and never quit blaming myself for my sins against the Mother. I never worried too much about God the Father who was never very good to me but God the Mother could have/would helped