So many changes that I haven't been able to write or even think about refining this process so that I will be "composing essays".
Annmarie moved to Oakland and I scored by acquiring her huge oak cabinet/kitchen pantry/entertainment center and got it along with washer and dryer and odds and ends and getting them in out place has caused major disruption.
OH and we now have three kittens inherited from Courtney who had rescued them from the place where she stayed temporarily. Now she lives here with kitties and boyfriend and we welcome them even though we complain about the late adolescent messes and irresponsibility,etc.
QOP talking about living in love rather than fear and I am watching for fear thoughts especially the ones from childhood when I was taunted with hateful words regarding my father from bullies and I was constantly called "Fattie". Have come to see that these experiences turned to self-negating beliefs that came out to undo all my efforts at the 1st qtr progressed moon of 79/80. I made terrible decisions then -moving to Marin with mean Corina,going back to school with only welfare to support us and one disasterous sex fling after another and rather than just keep on plugging along I disolved into obisity and self-hatred. This era has colored everything since then even the 2nd progressed new Moon a few years back. So.... this is where healing is occuring by changing the way I think about myself and about life.
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