01/06/2010-more

12/31/2009

So my brother whom I never really knew has died> I just had done an experimental chart for him last week. I felt no urge to talk to him, or to be in contact in any way.
I had felt drawn to him in the beginning when I found out about him and his life but I can not bare the type of person that he was-a born-again Christian Protestant who preached and whose pain and anger caused me to pull away.
Well I guess I didn't even keep the estimated chart because I could not remember if he was born 12/23/1943 or 12/26/1943. I knew that he was born in Liberal,KS and that his childhood was miserable and he was never to receive the affection that he craved.
I just was so put off by his01/01/2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR YEAR.
Wonderful to write out the new year.
Retrograde Mars caught up with all my saturn Moon Pluto-not in aspect now but will be again during Mars retrograde season.
Mars retrograde at 18 degrees Leo.
Bill Green passed away on the day of the Eclipse with Pluto conjuncting his Sun and Saturn Squaring his sun-Aries Point baby.
I should write out his story what I know of it. I am haunted by the thought of that poor little boy born two weeks after Wayne-abandoned8889999999999999999 because no one loved mothers or babies in Southwestern kansas in 1943 as we fought the Good War in Europe and Asia and Africa/ this little boy was given to people who were nuts and unhappy and they locked him in closets and no doubt hurt him physically until the woman died and then he was given to a Christian farming family where he was given the basics of citizenship but was not hugged or comforted physically. He was a big man with the a big head and he was cast aside because of his legal position as having been born when his mother had no husband-brutal.
Now days mothers can often keep their babies and adoption can be wonderful but things have only changed marginally. Single mothers are usually in poverty and their children are under educated and under stimulated and under supervised ( I should know having been both the abandoning mother and the single mother).
I still believe in Johnson's great society. If we would give enough for women to feel safe I believe that they the mothers will use their resources to raise their children, to educate themselves and in the end we would have a Great society with each generation becoming brighter and stronger and more loving.
I agree with Johnson on the debilitating effect of poverty on individuals and community and society.

12/9/09Speaking of reflecting, here is the “Five Remembrances” chant:
“I will lose my youth, my health, my loved ones, everything I hold dear and, finally, life itself by the very nature of being human.”

I may have more pieces but I don't have the time right now.,