Early morning: th family sleeps snoring sftly and I am full of love and contentment, I will forever crave the sounds and smells of a house full of blood relations. I wish that I had had more money when Amy was young or that I could have stayed with Gerald or what is this crap? I simply wish I could have been more secure but I couldn't not when I was young-so why not a grateful heart that this morning in the dark I can hear and smell my loved ones? Tears in the eyes-a long struggle to get to where I am now more stretch.
Steve gone again and all the women suspect that he has a second family in LA-perhaps but I don't think so I just think that he has to get away that he is more of a loner than I am and my intense family scene is shocking to him. Afterall his sister and brother are dead and his parents are alchoholic-he pretty much raised himself. I believe that he goes to see his father who is receiving treatment for melanoma the cancer that killed my father, he goes to visit his parents and extended family perhaps he flirts with other women and maybe he gets excited but I know he loves our life together and his career in academe.
Put on the hoodie so that I don't have to turn on the heat which would give amy and Arvin headaches.