Okay so I regret making this public still I find that writing hre is so much easier,so much faster that I am going to stay.
I need to write about the issues that keep me from maintaining any focus and control over my domestic life. The house is full of relatives: first Arvin came very shortly after we moved then Courtney off and on and now aimee and Aimee lays around talking baby-talk doing absolutely nothing to support herself or her children. I am willing to take over with the children (I always have any way) but I am not willing to take care of Amy. Oh and please I have my disabled sister-her son whom she rejected won't do squat for her. My sister loses the money the State sends her every month not all of it but a considerable amount. She is very good about sharing straight off so that I can pay utilities,etc,whatever and she likes to share with the family so that we can have a little fun maybe eat chinese,etc. Arvin is a kid=12 years but he does what he can with the reality he was born into-I love him and willingly took over for Aimee who just wasn't doing it. The problem was revealed when we had to leave Oregon St-when we were just at the end of the block the kids could stay and just go home to sleep or go home when their mommy was up. When we had to move (thank you Clymela for arguing with the landlord over back rent that worked hmmmm?!!) then the facts were revealed-Aimee can't take care of her kids and when I left whe decided that her friend just getting out of prison could take over and save her life.Oh brother what a mess and that is when Arvin came here. Eventually aimee had to come here because her mentally ill friend turned on her and revealed that he was living in a world populated by people she couldn't see so here we are and I am feeling like trailer park people which I imagine I am although I don't live in a trailer. I am overwhelmed by my inability to remain focused.
Enough for now more later