Waning crescent moon. Steve is coming home today; he was gone for 10 days. the longest seperation since my mother's death in 5/2003. I lean on him, depend n him. He and I agree on maintaining home even while we bicker about how we will proceed.
Kimn never got back to me-oh well time to let go In the end I believe her High Priestess Virgo moon, venus/mars just could not forgive my sloppy dangerous moon/pluto. I really loved her all these years and protected her saw her delicacy but as she said she couldn't forgive my loud bossy ways and then the years when I just wallowed in shadow because I didn't know how to integrate it as I have now done. Well as I said time to move on.
Wrote to Ann via unm.edu but I think there also the time has passed. and I still fear her father's judgement coming throgh her voice.
Read Ameilia the WICCA editor at BellaVoice on her blessing of the daily life and magical names. I loved it. My space is here at the computer in the early morning before anyone else stirs-just me and the cat. There is no other unused space in this little apartment not with six full grown individuals. I love this time and I will start a practice and build an alter nothing splashy but soemthing rooted in the material world.
This morning I did some light work before getting out of bed. I mixed some yellow and blue to arrive at a turqoise that was radiant. this was for my daughter who was asleep beside me and I had awakened with a desire to ground my energy and accept that this is real not just imaginal and then I wanted to surround her in this vibrant light which I did.
I am thinking/imagining branches up/roots down these days. The image of a large old tree has been with me for years.